Buzzing

Too much happening. Can't get thoughts in order today. Generally good things, overall. But I don't deal with lots at once very well. It tends to make me all buzzy and unable to focus. And I'm traveling this weekend, so I won't have much of a chance to cool down.

It's a funny thing. It might be part of my anxiety disorder, I guess. It doesn't matter whether it's good or bad stuff happening. If there's too much of it – boom goes the brain. At least the conscious part of it. I sometimes feel like it's a result of my subconscious mind going into overdrive trying to process everything. I wish there was a way to assign some limits on its resource allocation. One way in which computers are superior, I guess.

As you can probably tell, I'm just rambling today. It's a somewhat more coherent stream of consciousness than I've sometimes produced, but it is rambling nonetheless. Brain to buzzy for anything else. Buzz buzz buzz.

I also need to go to sleep soon and that will be an interesting venture. I have medication to help, but I very much dislike the effect it has when I'm wired. It works better as a supplement to existing drowsiness. I'll take it anyway, though, because it's still preferable to only getting my usual three or four hours that I manage naturally.

Woohoo! Five minutes! Off to buzz somewhere else.